Friday, July 29, 2005

Love Friday

yay! It's Friday morning at approx. 11:30 and I get to go home for the weekend in a mere 2 1/2 hrs! SCORE! WOOO HOOO

ok.

I think I've calmed down now. My excitement for this particular weekend is no normal, bland everyday excitement. Its the wondrous excitement of having nothing to do but relax. Every weekend since Brian and I moved to NYC, we've had visitors, places to go, or stupid work to do. This doesn't sound much but in 95 degree heat, its absolutely dreadful. This weekend, however, the sun is shining, its only 80 degrees and we have a fun day ahead of us. After work we're heading over to Soho so I can purchase a lovely pair of vintage cowboy boots ( eh em that I can't afford) which I've been dreaming about for 2 weeks. We're then going to cascade over to the Modern Art Museum and spend the afternoon purusing media concotions and drooling over my all time favorite artist, Monet.
Lastly, tonight I will be making a new dish for dinner, recently added to my vegan diet: Moong dahl. It sounds so yummy, moong beans, an array of spices, and some onions, all over brown rice and salad.
Ahh, honestly knock on wood, but I'v been feeling great lately. I'm sort of sad to leave the big apple, but at the same time, excited to see my girls back in OH.
Well, happy weekend to all, and next time I post, I will hopefully have a nice bronzy glow from laying out in Central Park tomorrow.


current mood - Cheery

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Screw steak, I can't even have eggs?

GULP.

Gulp again...here comes the suprise- I'm becoming vegan!
If you eat meat and dairy it may seem drastic, however my reasons seem to overpower filet mignon and creamy rice pudding. ahhh...tuna sushi, chocolate cake, raspberry yoplait yogurt, brie no no I'm not getting off track, Just yet at least :)
Before you think I'm insane, I will try and back up this drastic change in my diet.
My reasons for becoming vegan are quite simple actually. About 13 months ago I suffered from some "eating problems" as my therapist liked to call it and ended up severely damaging my gall bladder. Even after I recovered and felt better my gall bladder still overreacted, and not just overreacted, freaked out from particular foods: dairy and fats mainly. I remember last year my mom came to visit me @ Woo and took me for some pizza (some very greasy pizza). I hardly ate 2 pieces and my stomach went crazy. I was doubled over in pain the entire night. (I did get to take Vicodin though...) but thats beside the point. Anyway, to make a long story short I am supposed to have it removed and I love to procrastinate. So, for the time being I am going to try my hardest to stick to vegan specialties.
(The only restriction, brought on by my nagging mother and boyfriend, is that I have to eat meat and dairy occasionally. This is due to the constant worry my mother and Brian have for my health).
Besides my health, which is my primary reason for switching to veganism, I absolutely hate the way animals are treated in slaughter farms. I've taken some time this summer to read about hormone pumping, cannibalism, and torturous treatment these pour animals are put through in their short life spans.
BUT w/ that said, I'm also not as hardcore as some vegans are. For example,
- I'm not going to spit on you if I see you eat meat
- I will never tell you eating meat or drinking milk is wrong
- I will not go to protest rally's and throw fake animal blood on people...(yes that does happen)
- I will not refuse to eat around you if you eat meat or dairy.

So basically I'm the same person through and through. I'm actually learning a lot of cool recipes. After work this week, Bri and I have been going to Borders w/ my laptop and ipod. Its so great. I just chill, drink my iced coffee and read up about veganism, while he studies the LSATS. Love it.
In the meantime I have been slowly subsituting my foods: soy milk instead of regular, more curry, veg sushi, soy smoothies and medjool dates (if you havent tried them, buy some today honestly they taste just like caramel mmmm)

So veganism here I come. wincing...I'm scared!


current mood - really no ice cream?

Monday, July 25, 2005

weekend bliss

Yes, I'm back at work again.

How does the weekend go so fast? It always goes as follows: yay, its Friday! oh no its already Saturday. I hate my life, its SUNDAY. But I can hardly complain. I had a somewhat exciting weekend filled w/ weird and interesting little events happening here and there.
To start off, Friday Brian and I were supposed to go to some clubs w/ his friend and g/f from NH BUT after a long day at work and 2 hours of hot yoga later (w/out much water to keep me feeling normal) I had an insanely painful headache...but maybe it was the nutella sandwich for breakfast & for lunch... anyway, Bri and I went to bed at 9:00pm, and no I'm not joking..(eh eh although I did wake up at 11 and listen to dreary ipod tunes for 2 hours while laying on our sofa...which makes me wonder if any weirdos from the hotel across the street were looking at me in my striped undies. Well, I hope not).
Saturday my dad came into the city and spent the night at the Hilton w/ his g/f. He took me and Bri out to a fancy pants dinner, and then we were supposed to see the Lion King on broadway. BUT, TRAGEDY! I felt sooo awful, they sent him tickets for the wrong night. I could tell by the look on his face that he was very upset and felt bad. Well, we did try and make the best of the night by drinking an array of colored cocktails at the Hilton lounge and a swakny bar by our place. My dad left quite happy (meaning too many manhattans) so all in all it was a fun night.
Lastly, the dreaded day of the week: Sunday. However, on this particular Sunday, I had a great day. It was one of those days when the sun was shining and I had nothing to do but hang out w/ Bri in funky Soho boutiques and sip on my green tea frappachino. We ended the day by attempting to make our own vege sushi. I never thought you could get carb overload from sushi, but apparently w/ the amount of rice I used, you could, very tasty though. By the end of the summer I'll be a sushi pro..well maybe.

All in all a great weekend to help boost my Monday blues. Life is funny like that.


current mood - happy yet wishing it was Friday

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Random

A few years ago if someone would have asked me out to a sushi dinner I would have kindly replied no (while making a gagging gesture behind his/her once turned around)

However, now it seems since I came to college, more so since I moved to NYC, all I want to eat is asian food. esp. curry. OMG if you have never tried it, surrender. Its simply amazing. Its kind of odd that I'm writing about my love for asian cuisine, but I'm not gonna lie, I'm hungry and ready to go home.

Hmmm... it seems as though I've been really tired lately, esp. today. I think its b/c I havent really given myself a break lately (which I dont mind, I've been doing fun things!) Last night, Petronio and Pat Bowen invited me and Bri to go to Stand Up (a comedy club on the upper west side). We had a great time, aside from the fact that there was a 2 drink minimum. The total bill for all 4 of us was 68 dollars...sheesh! The comedians overall were really funny though. However, there was this one old guy that had been on comedy central...he was hilarious, but at one point during his act I noticed some people talking really loud. All of a sudden he started screaming "Shut the fuck up you mother fuckers! Shut up! Shut the fuck up!" (w/ a completely serious face) It was funny, but then the crowd grew silent. I think everyone else in the room was thinking what I had been thinking: Is this guy "making a joke" or is he a nut ball? Well I left w/ out knowing. Besides that one awkward incident though, it was fun.
If you have never been to a comedy club or are resistant, which I was, try it out. It may suprise you.

Well, bye for now!


current mood - craving curry :)

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Sneaks

Its time for some sneaky favs, I'm in the mood.

- Mariah Carey
- Rocking out to scary satanic music
- Liver & onions
- Receiving smiles from strangers
- Tattoos
- Facial piercings
- Wearing ugly clothes like torn up socks and oversized sweaters
- Oreo milkshakes
- Being naked
- Reliving memories in my mind
- Wrapping presents
- Gaudy over-emphasized jewelry
- Breakfast in bed
- Eskimo kisses
- Watching the sunrise
- Being difficult on purpose
- wearing lingerie

Its interesting how such a short list can be full of such random, unique favs, ahh.

current mood - sore (from yoga) and ready to go home for the day

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Rejuvenation, ahhhh

Sweat. Its a funny thing.

You never realize how much a human being can sweat until you've been in over 100 degree heat for over 90 minutes. Last night Brian and I left our first Bikram yoga class drenched with our own sweat (I dont think there was one place on my entire body that wasn't covered with beads of perspiration) Any sane person off the street would assume I just had a whole bucket of water poured over my head... or maybe that I was just plain crazy? I couldn't decide from all the stares on the trek home. Anyway, while I was disgusted at first (not to mention the constant feeling of suffocation I had in the first 15 mins) I grew to kind of like it. There's something about being in the heat, working your body that makes your mind only focus on you. Its a very therapeutic class, and I can't wait to go back tonight.

GOOD NEWS : I caved and after my dad's not so nice response to my second attempt to buy my long awaited ipod, I finally let my momma buy it. While I did have to swallow a lot of guilt last night, she assured me that I didn't need to feel bad. She predicted my dad's response, unfortunately, and knew how much I wanted to buy it. So yay! In approximately 4 days I will receive my 4gb bright blue mini ipod (w/ running armband of course) I honestly feel like its Christmas. Bring out the candy canes and the elves! I'm ready.

So yeah. Overall this past day has been pretty good to me. Now I get to look forward to Bikram tonight. Brian and I have also decided to do as the Swedes do and eat our dessert before our dinner tonight. We're going to head to whole foods to pick up something fabulous.
Amen.

current mood - calm and happy

Monday, July 18, 2005

Beautiful buys and Difficult parents

I'm having one of those days when I want to buy everything. sigh.

I'm in New York City, and naturally I want everything I see. However, working as an intern doesn't pay much, let alone enough to spend 300 dollars on a fabulous pair of black and white Marc Jacobs flats. sigh again. All this "spending" is on my mind b/c I go back to school in a little over a month and of course I want some stuff (some beautiful stuff) before I return.
My first attempt at retrieving funds - kindly ask selfish dad through email.
Result - failed.
My second attempt - ask mom kindly for money to purchase the ipod I've long been dreaming about owning.
Result - VICTORY (but w/ a large shread of guilt in the back of my mind)
Through all this I think I'm having trouble understanding why my penny-saving father treats me like a poor bum I see on the streets every morning on my way to work. My mom is amazing but I'm wondering if I should take the 226 dollars she's offering me for my purchase, gulp. AHHH why is my father so difficult?
Ok before I go, I'll end w/ some happy things of the day:
- feeling relaxed (suprisingly all morning)
- the yummy vegan peanut butter cookie I shared w/ Brian this afternoon
- getting to read this month's NY magazine and part of my Becoming Vegan book
- looking forward to 2 hrs. of hot bikram yoga tonight....ahhh relaxation

Well....one things for sure, at least my night will be rewarding, that is if my dad doesnt respond to my second, not so nice attempt.


current mood - At ease

Friday, July 15, 2005

Goodbye 7605 Berks Way

Sniff Sniff. It's official, I feel old.

Since my parents divorced 3 years ago, my dad moved to NY and my mom and I have been living in our (way to large) house in Hudson, OH. I love that house. I remember when I was 11- my dad and I picked the lot ourselves and helped with the design of the actual foundation. On the weekends after I finished my homework, my dad and I would drive to the lot and videotape the progress. We were such dorks. Me in my cordouroy overalls, always with a cherry blow-pop in my mouth, my dad in his cardboard thick bifocals...I miss those days. We were so silly then. I wish things could still be that simple. hmm
However, since its just my mom and I living in the stucco beauty now...usually just her and our puppy, we had to sell it. UNBELIEVABLE. The first day on the market and a family from CA buys it. Not Fair. I mean sure, I'm not there nearly as much as I was in high school. But theres something about my family being represented as a unit through that house that makes it hard to let go. W/ that said, let me reflect on some fond memories which took place in that house.
- 4th of July parties/back yard fireworks
- beautiful Christmas tree in the sun room
- lazy afternoons on our back deck
- my puppy rudy
- losing my virginity
- learning how to cook
- practicing ballet on the kitchen floor
- taking hour long jasmine scented bubble baths in my parents huge tub
- starting a new chapter in my life when my dad moved out
- discovering myself again in a new highschool and a new college
The list goes on.....

Even though I'm sad, I know it is for the best. A smaller house will be more quaint and homey.(esp. for my mom)

I just wish I could lay on my big fluffy bed in my bright yellow room one last time. sniff.

current mood - sad :(

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Mad love in a mad city

Uh.

So I'm sitting here at my small desk (located in the sophisticated "modern looking" perfume lab) drinking my fav. tea here in NY when a strange feeling of contentment came over me. (which is odd) Those who know me are familiar w/ the fact that I am rarely content w/ myself in any area of my life. Sadly. But for some reason, on this particular dreary Thursday I feel good. I feel good after a long time of not feeling so good. CONFUSING? yes. Ok, lets back up.

Moving to NYC w/ Brian was scary and exciting for me at the same time. When we first got here fighting over everything was our specialty. Which route to take to work? = fight. What time to go to bed? = fight. What groceries to buy? = fight. Amidst all the arguing, I was still 100% crazy about him. Thats what made our fights so difficult. I wanted to strangle him and makeout w/ him at the same time. We spent half our time ignoring each other (the sophisticated word, pouting) over each argument. So much pouting that we were wasting so much of our (hey we're in NY!!) time. The turning point came when we "broke up" on the 4th and my mom was staying with us for the weekend. He left our apartment upset and I cried and cried.......and cried.....and cried......But then I realized I was an idiot. I didn't want to be apart from him, ever. What was I thinking? I fooled myself into believing the past month of quarrels was worth giving up the greatest relationship I have ever had.
To make a long story short 1 hour, 2 pitchers of beer and 2 shots of jack daniels later we were back together, and we meant it. No more fighting. No more being selfish. We lost our way in the crazy environment we were thrown into on June 1st. Now I'm happy. Now I'm here in NYC w/ Brian.

I used to hate NY....now I think I'm starting to come around.


Current mood - Smiley

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

The things we do when we're bored

Time for a survey

1. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? Umm 2, Becoming Vegan and French Women dont get fat (not as funny as I thought it would be)
2. WHAT TIME IS IT NOW? 1:12pm
3. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? I dont have one @ work...I use a sketch piece of paper
4. FAVOURITE MAGAZINE? Cosmo, Yoga Journal & Health
6. BABIES? Honestly, they annoy me, but maybe someday :)
7. FAVOURITE SOUND? the ocean
8. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? Knowing that you disappointed someone, but he/she doesnt tell you outright
9. FIRST THING YOU THINK OF IN THE MORNING? shiiiiit its early
10. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? 1
11. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME? Olivia, Anais, James
12. FAVOURITE COLOUR: pink, DUH
13. WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE? self-acceptance, my fam, Brian
14. FAVOURITE FOOD? bread, my mom's spaghetti
15. If you could PLAY AN INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE? flute, its just so delicate and makes a beautiful sound
16 . DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? no, it scares me. (but Im also not a grandma)
17. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? of course, my two bears holly and eva
18. STORMS - I love them, but not when I'm alone
19. WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? 2001 Honda civic
20. THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK TO? def. my grandma
21. FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? apple martini's
22. WHAT'S IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR? its bare except for a field hockey bag/ball
23. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED WHAT WOULD IT BE? professional dancer or
24. PEOPLE LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND TO THIS? everyone haha
25. EVER BEEN IN LOVE? yes
26. IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL? It has the potential to be both
27 . FAVOURITE MOVIE? Someone like you
28. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? negative
29. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED? an entire desk and clothing rack...its lofted :)
30. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE NUMBER? 3
31. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SPORT TO WATCH? field hockey/wrestling
32. SAY AT LEAST ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? Well...no one sent this to me, but I did take it from my lil sis...so Justine is amazing and the most unique and the most individual person I have ever met.
33. IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE ANYWHERE WHERE WOULD IT BE? On the mountains with a clear water stream nearby
34. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING? red vintage shirt w/ lacey layers from Zachary's Smile
35. BEACH, MOUNTAINS OR CITY? Oh I cant decide I love all three!
36. TECHNOLOGY OR ART? Art
37. COMEDY OR HORROR? Comedy
39. FAVOURITE PHYSICAL FEATURE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? eyes and smile
40. FAVOURITE TIME OF DAY? late morning
41. THE LAST CD YOU BOUGHT? umm its been awhile....damien rice
42. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED? neck
43. WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT, STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN BODY? mind
44. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? usually early, yes even on the weekends
45. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE KITCHEN ITEM? hmmm this question weirds me out a bit but if I had to choose probably oven mits b/c they prevent burning haha
46. WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? shallow people, lies
47. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SPORTS CAR OR SUV? SUV
48. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE? of course
49. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SEASON? autumn
50. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Being able to hear what people think sometimes
51. IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT? shaded capricorn symbol, right lower hip
52. CAN YOU JUGGLE? helllo no
53. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE DAY? love saturdays
54. WHICH DO YOU PREFER SUSHI OR HAMBURGER? well I like both but I would def. pick sushi
55. FROM THE PEOPLE WHO READ THIS POST, WHO WILL RESPOND FIRST? most likely no one
56. WHO DID YOU RECEIVE THIS FROM? Justine
57. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CARTOON? Hate cartoons but I looooove Alice in Wonderland
58. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE MEAL? anything Thai or sushi
59. IF YOU COULD TAKE A VACATION ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD IT BE? West Indies
60. DO YOU HAVE PETS? yes, boxer named Rudy

Newbie

So hmmm.....I don't know how I feel about this. I'm "blogging" now which means I officially like the world to know what I'm thinking. (Instead of meticulously writing my thoughts in a cool journal I stole from my mother) I don't know if this whole blog thingy makes me weird or not, but I like "blogger" so far, so I'm going to go w/ not weird for my sake. And besides, my fabulous little sister Justine also has a blog, therefore I don't feel so out of place after all. yay.
Well....it is summer now and the heat has officially stolen my soul. Spending over an hour to get ready for work has been condensed to less than 15 mins due to the humidity. I used to leave my NYC apartment looking somewhat lovely in my dressy pants and silk top. However 45 mins and 2 and a half miles later I looked like an overworked middle-aged woman who no longer has time to look in the mirror before heading to the office. I now skip the makeup and straightener and go right for the sunscreen and moisturizer (Its probably better for my skin anyways). Ohhh....so yeah. I'm sitting at work. I'm sitting at work writing on blogger which obv. means I don't have many productive tasks here as a "Marketing intern." Sure, I love to bind presentations and do meticulous little tasks like take inventory on perfectly stocked shelves, but SADLY, I only do these amazing (cough cough sarcasm) jobs like 3 hours a day. The rest of the day....hmmm...well I try and be personally productive like find a senior IS topic. YEAH right who am I kidding? Oh well. At least my mind is on the right track, right?